Because this is sort of gross, I have made the picture for this day small. If you see these spots... this is just a light scattering of what was ALL OVER MY BODY.. except much thicker. My doctor said anywhere from 6 weeks to 6 months! It's been about three weeks.. I really hope it goes away soon.

One of the best things about coming home is seeing my piano. It's hard to believe I've played for over 14 years of my life. I'm really glad and grateful to my mother for pushing me to learn & not letting me quit. Playing piano is something I truly cherish.

If someone asked me to capture perfection, I would show them this picture.
The eyeball has circle contacts on, I noticed. How interesting. Asian story, too.

Delicious. From JJ Bakery. The strawberries were divine.

I really need to use my planner more.

Not the best picture, but this is what we ate today at Maggiano's w/Yanbo's cousin Ruby, her bf, and Sam&Jon from the house. Pretty good =]

Today was my brother's 17th birthday. My mom bought a tiramisu cake for him & she's going to buy him an iPod Touch. I gave him my acekard. My cousin is also back in the ER.

The mocha freezes here are to die for. Absolutely, perfectly the way I like them.

Did I go eat Chinese food today?
Nope! This is a picture of my mother's cooking. Yes, she is the world's best cook, and no, I haven't the faintest idea why I am not a gajillion pounds. She cooks all the time, never hesitates to feed me, and yet... well, I don't know. Either way, her food is delicious.

She made me a sweet&sour pineapple, fish, & bellpepper dish. So good.
Other than that, I spent the day studying. Curse you, LG. So difficult.

A lot of things happened today. Eusden & Yanbo finally met, I got to go out to lunch with two of my favorite people in the world, Yanbo went home on a train (after getting me a micro SD converter.. yay I can upload pictues!), and I had a nervous breakdown in Pantera.

I just realized that if I do succeed in the private industry, I'll be working 70 hour weeks, which means my child... if I even have any... won't really know me.

 
I don't know what triggered it. Well I do. I was studying & I look out the window & I happen to see a young couple. The mother has her child in her arms, just playing with him, when the dad is walking right next to them. I was like, "*dreamy sigh* I wonder if I'll ever have that with Yanbo"- and then it struck me as I stared at my book & everything I read in Ahead of the Curve about broken families and 100 hour workweeks and... yeah.

I hate you, LG.

The view from my corner of the cafeteria where I study T__T. Every... single... day. *sigh*

Iron Man 2 again @ the dollar theatre. <3

Doctor's note.

So many spots. Ahhh :[

 Forgive the horrible picture. It is just a pineapple fried rice I had. Not as good as Best Thai in Riverside :[. This is from a place called At Thai or @Thai

I'm still itchy *sigh

Also, when I drove it's blurry. Kind of like this picture:

[Isn't his little ribbon precious? However, he chewed it off minutes after this picture.]

Today was awesome <3

Itchy bumps. Not a happy bunny at all.

 

 My parents kept blaming Riverside [see ex-address] for all my problems, but look! I have problems back in Irvine too!

So I had a post halfway written when the computer I'm on completely froze.

Then it struck me.
At this point in my life, pretty much everything that's happened in my life is related to academics/school.

For a long time now, I haven't been doing well academically. This summer, it's all changed.
I've boiled it down to three parts.

1] newfound self-confidence in my own abilities
2] newfound motivation for myself, not for others, but sheerly for myself
3] newfound feeling of proactiveness. It's a word now, don't argue with me =p

This has led to:

1] active participation in class
2] self-motivated studying (my parents don't know I'm studying for graduate school)
3] decrease in quality of life elsewhere (but does it correlate?)

I feel really betrayed by someone I trusted, a friend. My relationship is now a one-sided street. I look at my friends, and find that most of them are simply too immature for me. The ones who are not, are just too busy with their lives for me (which I understand perfectly and do not begrudge them and wish them success), being as we're at the point in our lives where we simply need to grow up. My laptop has been destroyed and I have a lot of it backed up but I lost a lot of things. I have no financial freedom (or freedom at all) living in Irvine, and it's honestly a golden chain with my parents and I.

All this has culminated into a feeling of complete misery.



What is the point of this story?

The only physical and mental enjoyment I really have these days is my cup of coffee. [Isn't it lovely?]

My 5 year old laptop combusted today. The computer I am using now has no microSD flash drive, so I can't upload the picture I took today, which was gorgeous.

I don't think I'll be getting a new laptop anytime soon, so I can't post pictures.

-very unhappy-


Here's solemn dog.

First off, Columbian coffee is awesome. Second, my tooth fracture is not. Third, I got a 100% on my philosophy quiz. Fourth, my teacher is a pothead. Fifth, I strongly suspect he may be allergic to flour. Lastly, this crap is confusing.

These are Taiwanese style breakfast sandwiches my mom made.
Regular toast, bacon, (marinated?) cucumber, lettuce, egg, & sweet mayo.
It's really good. I loved these in Taiwan & my mom made them pretty well!

This is an unphotoshopped photo of my eyes. Circle lens give my eyes that light brown color. I think I'm going to try grey next.

Today I woke up and took a diag test. 93% percentile. Hopefully, in a few months, I will be up there on the 97% percentile. I'm really excited, actually, because I feel like this is what I am good at... this is what I should do.

I was thinking about PLUR today. I'm obsessed with this song. I played it 20 times already.

Okay, so there was a much cuter picture of Dinner... but I liked this shot because I also got Yanbo in the background. &I <3 Yanbo just as much as I love Dinner (maybe just a little less, but it's like.. almost the same, right?)

Today was fun. I really feel bad for the bunny, though... she got attacked, twice. Oh dear. Also.. I just downloaded Laidback Luke's EDC set. WOW. Pretty amazing.

I hope that Noc's lineup will be just as awesome so Yanbo will go with me. I just found out that one of my childhood friend rolls.. so I might see him at Noc if I go! &My little said he'll go too... which is really exciting. &Vivie said she might go with Keith! How awesome would that be :D?

*sigh* I love this picture... my two most loved people/beings.

Watched Eclipse with Titus' youth group. Eclipse: Enough cheese to feed Africa.

Jacob is hot, except for his nose. His nose looks like Voldys from HP.

Alice is way hotter than Rose in this movie.



Also, studied today. Yanbo said I should take a diag first. Asked my mom, she's willing to let me go to the full course if I need to.

Daphne's dog is named Coco. He's 10 years old but looks like a puppy... and acts like one! So cute :] Pure cocker-spaniel as far as they know.

I can't wait until Yanbo can bring Dinner.. even if just for a bit, to play with Coco. Then... off to the dog beach for us! yay :D

[ps: Today, my philo professor complimented me. ^^]

First day of summer school. I am really tired, but philosophy is very interesting.

I'm really fascinated ... and almost obsessed.. with pretty binders & notebooks & mechanical pencils. Is that strange ?

Again, my poor dentist couldn't properly numb my mouth. *sigh
I had my leftover rice for lunch today. It was really, really yummy. There's something about fried rice that tastes good all the time.

This is thai pineapple fried rice. It's probably one of my favorite foods.

Also...stress stress stress stress. Summer school starts tomorrow.

Happy 4th!

My little & I went out for a late lunch, followed by a BBQ.

(Very hot, vivid dream during nap time today).

The BBQ was a block party at Ceylon Drive by Mr. Kao, who was my Sunday school teacher for a bit in high school.

There was a lot of food, but I felt pretty out of place. Everyone there was a lot younger. I did talk to Jon & his friend though.

Also... I'm pretty sure I want to go to UCD for graduate school, though if somewhere better takes me I may consider there, haha.

They set off street fireworks tday. I got a pretty good picture here!

Today was my old Northwood High group's annual 4th of July get-together. Not everyone went because it was also Anime Expo, but a few of the buddies showed up. These are the kabobs I made. Took forever to cook since we didn't have the proper materials. Pineapple (fresh), chicken, sweet onion & bell peppers... cost me about 5 dollars, lol.

It's been a 4 full years since we graduated, and that means I've known them for about 8 years. Where are they now?

Ashley - graduated from UCI, econ? Going to China in a few weeks for a 6 month long language immersion program. Working part-time at an optometrist.

Nicole - graduated from UCLA, some kind of polisci. Attending Loyola Mm Law school in LA.

Jessica - graduated from UCI. Going to John Hopkins for pharmacology.

Annie - graduating from UCLA with a math degree.

Michelle - graduated from UCI, already enrolled in an MBA  program there. TAs.

Eunice - graduated from UCI. Working in an office for a doctor.

Andrew - graduating from UCSD, psych. Working for a company who is using facebook for promotions.

Jonathan - graduating from UCLA.

Chris C - graduated from Carnegie Mellon, design.

Chris N - graduated from Stanford, science, going to be a doctor (UCI med school?)

Chris V - going to CS Sac.

Ronald - not sure :[

Eugene - not sure... going to a 4 year uni I think.

&we have Justina, graduating from UCR, English degree, applying for a teacher credential program next fall (or maybe not).


I wonder where we'll be in another 4 years.

This is a picture of Taiko's lunch time sashimi bowl. It has salmon, tuna, mackerel, yellowtail, and something else. This is actually Steve's lunch, but I had a bit of the mackerel (my favorite!). My lunch with a Thai Iced Tea, Pineapple fried rice, and Earl Grey tea.

I returned my CBEST book today and spent about two hours studying. I'm quite confident that I'll do well on my test! But... it's too early to say, especially since some parts of it are really hard!