Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Back in Riverside, there was a period where I made brownies almost every week. Now, I make it every month during ChocoCrave. Today is the first day I baked anything (and I daresay, anyone in this house baked any sweets) in the oven in Irvine.

The brownies were pretty good... I like mine baked fairly well so I always leave it in the oven for about 10 minutes after the oven goes off. I'm going to eat them slowly... thank goodness there are no teenage men with the munchies.  I used to have to hide part of my brownie if I wanted any at all!

Another nice thing being at home... I don't have to worry about my beloved Dinner getting into chocolate.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Today was another wonderful day, spent with the two beings that I love the most... my baby and my lover. I can not believe how much I cherish any time I can spend with him. <3

I'm a little excited as I embark upon the possible road for a new career, but it will all depend on how I score. Uh-oh... something I actually need to study for. This will be interesting. Must remind myself to read more.

Tell me, who could resist such an adorable face? I love my puppy so much.

Monday, June 28, 2010

The sky was gloomy and overcast today. I went on a walk, even though it was pretty cold. This bird... I was walking, not paying attention to where I was going, and I almost stepped on it. After noticing the pretty blue in its wings as it flew away, I stalked it for about 10 minutes until I could get this shot.

It's so CUTE. &FAT! &what a pretty blue~

Oh, something to make a note of. When I got back, my poor Asian mother was washing the car in her pj's. The kids next door... one white guy who was in my NHS grade, and some kid, were making fun of her.

I fucking hate kids like them. Disrespectful, rude little snot-faces.

If I wasn't over 18 I would have physically attacked them. However, I'll be content to look up his name & file a harassment charge against him. If he does this again, I will be sure to have my video camera out and record those little shitheads.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

I was thinking about my starter home today.
A starter home where I can move to when I'm about 25, with a job, in a safe neighborhood. I was thinking about Long Beach, since it seems to be a nice city that's not too ridiculously expensive. If I am married and if my future husband also has a job and some money saved up, perhaps we could live in a home where the down payments are about 1,500 a month for the house. I do know that comes up to about 20k a year for housing... but I think it's do-able if we live frugally. I really wouldn't mind living in a home in Riverside, as long as it had a gigantic backyard. I want somewhere my baby can run around all day happily, perhaps with his very own friend :].

I only hope the housing market remains relatively cheap in the next three years, especially Riverside. Once UCR gets a medical school, property prices will increase and (hopefully), if I have a starter home in Riverside, it will be profitable.

But I dream. I need a job, NOW... to pay off my bills.. NOW!

This way my adorable little baby will have a home :]

Saturday, June 26, 2010

LA is the city of exotic beauty. The girls who walk on the streets are like the pebbles of a beach. Every size, every color, every style... yet it all blends together.



What can I say? I love LA. Something about the way 626 boys smile. Every single boy from there has the most charming smile, lighting up the room. Nothing like the 949/714.

But Norcal men are interesting as well. Every single one has a certain "spark" to them, a type of wholehearted love of (something) that is unique and can't be found in southern California. It's an American beauty, the American spirit, and it's mesmerizing when I stop to think about it.

I love how beautiful the world is. The world becomes a fair, my hands, my skin, lights. I prefer the energy that is flowing through me, leaking unmistakable trances of desire into the air.

Friday, June 25, 2010

This is my cilantro plant.

It was originally bought as part of a project for my little brother, Titus. We were browsing around when I smelled this, and I remembered how Yanbo says he loves cilantro. So I bought it and decided to bring it back to Riverside to raise, so I can use some cilantro whenever I want! How lovely will it be?

What a pretty plant :]

It's a little dirty from me planting it, but I will wash it fresh and clean before I use it!

Hope my baby's having a good time at EDC.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Today was the best day I've had all summer.

10 to 2 was nice, except when I got DITCHED for like... 30 minutes. Felt like forever though. Like 1 hour at least! Evil, evil, evil. <3

This is Dinner's super cute face when he cocks his head to the side. It's really, really cute :D.

I watched Marley & Me today... and omg I cried so hard.... it's such a good movie. I love my dog... and Dinner's such a better behaved dog. He's like a skinny mini Marley. Hahaha.

In person, Dinner really does look like a lab puppy. I wuv him. &his daddy.

&today just reminded me again that I made the right decision and I have the best man in the whole world. &he's all mine. Buahaha.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

This really had nothing to do with my day, except it was a cute picture I snapped at a red light while I was driving. Yes, I know, it was dangerous.

Today was my brother's last day of class. I took him & his friend, a girl named Gabbi, to Juice It Up. All this made me realize was how different people are, and not everyone is like me. Later, his friend Adam came over and I drove them to Spectrum, then went and had some shaved ice with Steve. During this time, I applied to three different places- 85C, Crepes, and Ramen.

I was thinking about this and I also talked to my mom about this. Yanbo was wrong. I'm not spoiled. If it comes down to it, I will work. &more than that, I am willing to do any work. I don't think the term is "humble" here, but I can't think of another word to describe how it is. In this economy, I understand that life isn't the way it should be. Yes, I am only charging 15/hr for SAT tutoring, but people don't seem to realize that it is ridiculous to demand 30/hr, in this economy, with my UCR background. If I came from Harvard, then it'd be different. Sad, but true. &I don't care, I'm willing to work around it.

The reason I say this is because, I think of people like David's dad and Yanbo's dad. Both, when they came to America (or Canada, in Yanbo's family), were adults. However, in order to support their families, they took on very humble jobs. David's dad washed the dishes in the back of a Chinese restaurant, was probably paid below minimum wage and under the table. Yanbo's dad sold fish. Both are jobs that most people.. even kids like us.. are loathe to take. &I can think of quite a few people who would refuse to work there.

But right now? If it were me... it it actually mattered... I would suck it up and I would work there. That's why, even though my dad and some people don't think I should be charging as low as I am and that I "deserve more," the fact is that I DO HAVE to work because I have bills I must pay, and I am willing to work in food services even if I think I "could do better." Beggars can't be choosers, and I'm a surviver.

But I know Yanbo disagrees with me.

I'm not a little princess. Srsly. *pout pout

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

This is a very simple dish to make that tastes HEAVENLY. My mom made it :]

It's red bean pastries. I don't know how or how it manages to taste like it does, but I'll be making it in Riverside!

Nothing much happened today. I am interested in tutoring the SAT, though. I have the background for it.

Oh, and lastly, a quick check of where I am.

25 sit-ups. 10 arm lifts, chem book. 5 push-ups. 50 jumping jacks. 10 front lunges per leg. 10 squats.

I don't think I'm doing this right... my legs burn, and my abs... but not my butt. & I want a nice, cute, perky butt. What am I doing wrong ><

Monday, June 21, 2010


Today was another day spent mostly lounging around. I did pick up & drop off Ashley's little bro to work?

Anyway, this picture is from Barnes&Nobles where I dragged my little brother to today. As you can see, we stayed long enough for me to read through one book & one manga book. My brother ate the triple chocolate chunk cookie, and I had a dark cherry mocha frap, 2 shots extra coffee.

This book got me to thinking... I really do love the Warcraft series. I think one of the best presents in the world would for me to have all the books. There's like.. 12 now? But my favorite is STILL Lord of the Clans, lol. It's probably because I was such a loyal Horde, and it was so awesome having a backstory to Thrall. I mean, he was in all my quests... and I got to read about him! AHHH! &he's so COOOL! *sigh* I'm going to go back tomorrow and read more, haha.

The Wallflower series has been one of my favorite manga for a very long time. The anime.. ehh... I don't know. But I love the manga. I hope Sunako & Kyohei end up together~

Also... I asked Yanbo to send me a new picture everyday, either of him or of our cute little Dinner. Hope he does it. He's been doing pretty well with his promise that he'll call me everyday, at least once.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

My picture for today is of the book I picked up earlier today and read through. I've started this many times, but I've always been put off by the unorthodox telling of this story- how it's a story of a story in a story. Perhaps it's because I love the classics that I felt as if this was "unprofessional."

Either way, I'm glad I finally read through everything. I won't deny I skimmed through much of the "present day" telling of it. What really touched my heart was the story of Buttercup and Westley. How they met was so sweet, and the endings so ambiguous that no one is certain what happened. Either way, for me, it was a happily-ever-after love story. I realize that if I were to read this in an English class, it might not be so wonderful, but I'm glad I enjoyed it in its essence.

My dad is pissed off at something else again. *sigh* Chalk up yet another day ruined because of his anger, and another reason why I have father issues.

I miss my love and my baby. Can't wait to see them.

Saturday, June 19, 2010


This fruit is the reason why I really miss living in Asian areas.

I bought a bag of lychee from 99 ranch market. They were juicy, large, sweet, with little seeds. I ate a whole bag (1 pound) in two days, haha. &that was with restraint.

Nothing much happened today worth noting about. I guess today is just another day I should mark down as "fighting with my dad when he's being completely unreasonable." One of those, "you're not allowed to work, we'll give you money," and "you're not allowed to spend our money because you don't 'need' to," so... yeah. I'm really, really, really pissed off. &I'll leave it with... no wonder I have father issues.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Behold the wonders of one of the most delicious Asian desserts you will find. This is shaved ice.
This one in particular is a green tea shaved ice with mochi, red bean, and condensed milk, which is as Asian as it gets. We had it at a place called The Balcony. I think I'm going to apply to work there. The girls there dress pretty sexily, yet most of them don't really have a body any better than mine. I really need a job... *sigh*

Ashley & I talked about this over our dessert. The service sucked, I speak Mandarin, and it really does suck when your parents insist on paying for everything. I mean, it's nice, YES... but I'd like to be able to buy my boyfriend gifts with my own money, and get my hair cut, etc. 

So back to the actual place. Loud. Asian. LOUD. I forgot how obnoxiously wealthy and ASIAN Irvine is... I sort of miss humble old Riverside. I definitely miss the freedom there. 

The service SUCKED. I said that already, but let me repeat it. SUCK SUCK SUCK. Slow and terrible. We spent most of our time waiting. Plus, since I had snuck out of the house after my parents left for church, I had to be home before 10:30. Ashley had to get a tofu to go, and we high tailed it out of there.

When I got back to my place, my parents weren't home. However... I forgot my key. The back fence was locked. I had to scale a 5 foot fence in complete darkness, crawl on a wooden ledge, and sneak into the house through the kitchen window, which means avoiding all the plates. I stepped in the sink, literally. Oh well. I got house safe & sound, and hopefully my parents will never know! 

Thursday, June 17, 2010




















So first of all, let me make a note today that the Lakers won the NBA Championships & Kobe Bryant is MVP again. Congrats to them.

Anyhow, today's picture is the swimming pool I went to today with Steve. It's a gorgeous pool, and there's a lovely jacuzzi as well hidden to the side.

We met up at Lollicup, he drove there, and we spent two hours tanning & talking. I don't understand why some people don't want to be friends with or maintain contact with their exs, provided it was a clean breakup. I've said this before... boyfriends/girlfriends are the only ones who "know" you in a special way that not even your parents understand. Romantic love is beautiful and meaningful, and I honestly feel that the casual breakups & the notion that "exs can't be friends" cheapens what SHOULD be one of the most wonderful things in the world. There is a special freedom that is born from a relationship.

On a lighter note, I am officially a shade darker than Steve (Oh look, I mades a puns).. My legs are now more tan! &when I came home and took off my bathing suit, I saw that I had tan lines. Hooray :]. However, I think that I will definitely try to get whiter skin on my face & my arms, and try to tan my legs a little more.

Afterwards, we went back to Lollicup where I bought a Matcha Green Tea (it wasn't that good), and we went our separate ways.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Today is my first day of trying Project 365. I heard about it, but I thought it was just about things that made you happy.

However, I read about it and it seems that this project is more documenting your life. I think this will be very interesting, as I'm at a lot of crosswalks, and by June of next year many important decisions in my life will be made (I hope). I will have graduated (I hope), and have gotten a job (I hope), and... well that's it for now. But who knows what it holds?


REGARDLESS... This is my first day. So what is the story behind this? Well, as you guys might know, Yanbo is the fashion-expert / brand name specialist (cough cough). However, it was my lovely, wonderful friend Ashley (that I have known for 10 years! TEN YEARS!! That's half my current life!) that took me out to lunch for my birthday, at the Neiman Marcus in Fashion Island, Newport Beach, CA.

We ate at a place called Mariposa. It was pricey and on a Wednesday afternoon of no particular importance, there were only extremely wealthy white patrons. Old, too, but with plenty of botox and makeup to remedy. I normally wouldn't be this mean, but one of the ladies gave me the dirtiest look ever (What is this young Asian punk doing here?!). So here's to you, rude lady. Also, it's not cute when you loudly greeted your friends (of about 30 to 35) with the title, "Oh hello girls!" That was cute when you were still a sorority chick.

To the food.... expensive? I felt incredibly bad because of the price, but Ashley had an ace up her sleeve so it was alright. She had a salad that could not have possibly filled her(poached pear, brie, and arugula), and I had the Kobe Beef sliders. They were very delicious, with caramelized onion, arugula, & cream sauce.

The popovers were divine, with their strawberry butter. It tasted like strawberry cream cheese, to be honest, but either way I enjoyed it. What made this experience especially nice was our kind and attentive waiter who offered us extra popovers. He must have figured we needed some meat on our bones, haha.

I am a little sad today, though, as I discovered for the first time I have a bit of cellulite in my thighs. Oh Lord. Why did you curse me with both a tiny chest & cellulite? Life is truly unfair.

Oh, and lastly... the photo is of the take-home bag that my french fries were packed up for me in. How pretty :].